Every you, Every me
'You don't know me. You know one me, just like I know one you. And you can't know every me, and I can't know every you." -David Levithan from Every you, Every meI think I posted about how I always find myself rushing in everything I do. Even if it's a trip which is just a few feet away. And it's getting even more serious. I start to time myself now, telling myself I have 5/10/15 minutes to do a particular task and that I cannot exceed the time limit.
I can't stand it. It's almost automatic.
And I can't stand how I over think and get afraid of things so easily. I try my best not to show but I guess everybody's bound to find out anyway.
I can't say that I'm turning into an adult and that I tend to over think things. It's nonsensical right?
Things are happening to me that I don't find in the norm, I often ask myself if feeling or thinking this way is normal.
on somedays I feel like there is something wrong with me. Something just doesn't feel right.
I think I am under pressure.
school/people/sensitivity/overthinking/time limit = pressure.
I need a holiday. I need time where I can call my own. I think too much I can't even think anymore.
I need a break.
God, please help and help me pull this through. I have so much faith in you.
Sunday, October 21, 2012 @ 6:42 AM / 0 daisies